So I’m back. Where have I been? Why haven’t I been posting?

I don’t have a good reason.

But I feel I owe an explanation.

I didn’t stop posting intentionally. Writing a blog has been really fun. Working out how to build a website, and how to make things look somewhat professional as a total novice was quite fulfilling. I was really proud of what I had put together. I didn’t have any training on how to use this platform. I just figured it out. And I wanted to learn more.

But then I missed a deadline. I promised myself that I would pick it back up at the next deadline. And then missed that one. And so it continued.

I will say that these were self-imposed deadlines. There was no manager or conglomerate forcing me into this.

At the end of last year, I had all these plans for what I wanted to do with this blog. I wanted to upload blog posts twice a week, post my daily outfits, share new recipes that I had tried. But this all takes a lot of time. I was enjoying creating a corner of the internet that was mine to share, but I seemed to lose steam. I had put a lot of pressure on myself. I wanted to create something that was of a really high standard. And the more I did, the more polished I wanted it to be. I became a little insecure about the quality of the posts, the photos, the outfits (the way I looked in the outfits). And with that insecurity came the feeling of fraudulence.

I’m no authority. Why should people take my advice on how to style their wardrobes or what shampoo to use? Do I really have the right to take up space in someone’s day to read what I think about Amy Poehler’s latest endeavour (by the way, I saw her live in conversation earlier in the year, and she’s wonderful. The girl crush continues) ?

This kind of leads me into my main point.

I would never have described myself as a perfectionist. “Done is better than perfect” is a motto that resonates quite strongly with me. But when you’re putting your name to something that is so public on the internet, it tends to drive you towards perfection. Now, we all know that perfection isn’t real, let alone realistic for someone who is just starting out. And I have learnt that perfection is the enemy of progress.

You can’t improve if you quit out of fear of not being perfect. If you stay on the road, you’ll get to where you want to be eventually. It may not be as fast as you want it to be. But it’s the progress that is important.

I will aim to post once a week. It doesn’t have to be perfect. Posts don’t have to be a certain length, or have exquisitely arranged photography. And if I miss a week, I can just pick it up the next week. Let’s face it. Noone is coming here for life-affirming advice or expertise. I just want to share my experiences with the world that I exist in. You can take it on board, if you want, or you can say “good for her, not for me”.

I just have to keep learning and enjoying this project.

And it feels good to be back.

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